im back to blog this very entry with a heavy heart ..

for this past few days, i've been thinking of lots of questions starting with "why! why! and more why!" sometimes i strongly believe to use your hearts and do things and yet sometimes i dun agree on it .. im sounding contridicting?! i only start to disagree this believe recently . it's because if i start to use my hart and do things according to it . i guess i will fall back one more ~ seriously, i cannot take another blow from relationship or family probs . its like going to drive me nuts soon ... i've been thinking this few days of the decision i've made in life . whether did i once made the wrong choice ? i guess i did .. because i ever experience the taste of living in regret . it may taste terrible to live in regret but in life , humans tend to make mistakes in their choices .. the choices we made may seemed to leave a big impact in life but we still got to accept it thou ~

and i got this very friend named "GORGEY" ~ he told me since i've made a decision, i've to stick with it .. no point of thinking of all this silly matters ~ whatever he told me did knock sense in me and i really thnk him for that .. as for lyon, he is another good counseller .. wateva he say oso make loads of sense ~ ohh ya, i cann't miss out this damn emotional guy ! LIM CHEESIANG ~ he is a godly guy whom i respect . no one can beats his emotional heart .. foreva faith to his one and only gurl ~

it's true tat im only seventeen and time is really on my side . there is still loads of things i haven yet discover .. so wad for i choose to be stuck here for life ?

to my dear keshy lee, i hopes she gets well soon .. life is so fragile man . anytime an accident can jus happen .. however luck is still on her side lahh ~ i cannot afford to lose this cousin of mine . *prays that she can start kicking ard*

ARGHH !~ i just know that i still haf a long way to battle all this hardships before i cud finally rest down .. im really very vexed this few days . loads of thoughts jus kip poppin` in my head and images kip appearing . seriously, i wanna kick that thought out of me but i somehow find it rather hard . i nid TIME to overcome all this !!

oh myy !!! PULLS MY HAIR !!

one last issues is that i lost both of my best working khakis at work . they are mainly gorgey and melvin ~ they haf left AOD for about a week or so . i really do miss them at work ... they nvr fail to disturb and bring laughter to me . alright, i don't wish to sound as thou they are dead . is just that they are no longer at AOD but they do make an effort to drop by at AOD to disturb us once more =X

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