i'm confuse with ma emotions
i'm messing up the whole situation
i cant do anything right
i make rash decision
i am overruled by ma temper
i'm jus an attitude problem kid ~

many things happen to miie ~

we seperated for a time being . it had been five days ~ even thou we are seperated but we are still contacting thru sms .. the way we talk was kinda strange . a normal tone ? when some of my friends knew that we are seperated , they go like "2 years aye!" YAH ! i agree that 2 years is a long period of time . but ish the feelings that count . moments shared together and memories ish definetely not gonna leave mie . i don't mean that i dun love him already ~ this seperation ish like a test for us . if we are meant to be we will always be .. i voiced out this seperation becos i yearn to haf ma own space .. most importantly, i dun meant that he controlled me . to be fair to him, ma boy do not control who i go out with and wart i do .. he is not those possesive bf ~ i strongly hate those possesive bf whom control their own gurl to the core . i do admit that in this relationship he is the one who is giving in more . for mie ? i jus keep on taking and taking .. i do agree with one of ma friend whom said that when couples are long for together , they tend to lost the passion . ish like the future of us being together is not so clear anymore ~ to be short, we are not going anywhere . we are STUCK ! before our 2 years arrive, i was lookin forward and when it ishh over , there ish nth for mie to look forward to ~ maybe tat's the reason every couple tend to seperate after their 1 or 2 or 3 years being together .. this seperation oso give me time to realise whether i love him as strong as da past anot ~ and if i don't love him as much as the past , it will be selfish f0r me to be together with him .. i dun wan to be with him becos of HABIT ~ i wan to be together with him becos of LOVE . this decision that i had made had shocked lots of people . even ma sister / cousin / cousin's bf said that , "ahtong so good !"

eu all may think that i am selfishh ~ but for wadeva decision that i haf made i will bear all the consequences . ma sister did told mie to bear until his O's lvl end ~ but i dun wan to do so . becos i am afraid tat i cant bear so long and give him up half way . wichh ish near to his O's lvl ! this will make the matter even worst . at least for now, there is still time for him to be himself ~ but i did promised him that if i realise that ma love for him ish still dere . i will SURELY go back to him .. to accept mie or not ish up to him ~ i pray hard that he do well for his mid yearr !*

P.S - to ma close budds, if eu only came to realise wart happen to mie after reading ma blog , pls do not be fumed with me . i don't wishh to shocked all of eu ~ i jus wanna tell eu all that i am fine . still alive kicking ..

lastly, one of ma good budd was hospitalised . i really do hope that he will be fine and everything goes smoothly for him . i dun wishh to lose him so soon ~ may all the angels be withh himm !! i will pray for euuuuuuuuu =))

♥ 12:57 AM