BAD NEWS: I G0T A C6 FOR MY O'S LEVEL CHINESE! *sighss* i expected more than that but it din come true afterall.. i can only dwell on my sadness for awhile and get backk to reality fast..

t0day after schh, my clique and i rushed down to the canteen to check out our results.. can sense gui and j0annie and myself ish nervous only calene is rather relaccs.. b4 we could reached the canteen, from far i can see a cr0wd there already.. every0ne was squeezing their way near the b0ard to see their 0wn results and i joined them tOo~ i heard screams of happiness and grumbling of disatisfaction.. while i was searching my name on the b0ard i was oso worrying at the same time ab0ut wart i will get..h0wever, i saw gui results first and i told him wart he got.. can see he was rather unhappy about it and later when i checkk agains his grade has g0ne d0wn 1 more and i GUESS he must be damn l0w.. c0s i know he expects alot for his chinese~ at first i saw my name at the last piece of paper at the b0ttom and i guess i get c6 then when i heard one of my schhmate say see the no. beside your name and it will be ure grade.. ehhh, i th0ught there was still a slim chance for me to hope on but when i look the grade beside my name, it's still a c6.. n0 change! wanted to get out of the cr0wd after i had checked my sc0re and saw darling standing at 0ne c0rner.. i walked towards him and i could n0t control my tears i cried.. i really din expect that i would get a c6 u know and that results jus simply sux big time.. i hate the digit c0s it ishh jus soo big! my tears jus flow and flow while my heart was achingg deep down inside.. i can't express h0w much i felt at that moment to any0ne bec0s they will nvr kn0w wart i am thinking and feeling ab0ut.. i had consoles from my closes friend ard me but s0meh0w it did't really w0rk.. gui did not speak muchh and i think he ish really shag and sad about his results. while walking from the canteen to the 3rd fl0or toilet my tears jus can't stop flowing.. i went int0 the toilet and hide inside for awhile b4 i came out.. pr0mised myself that crying cannot solved anything and i must w0rk damn damn hard the nxt time round to achieve better resutls.. i went backk to class and some of my friends knew that i cried bec0s my face sh0ws and i packed my bag. intend to go for chemistry but did not bec0s gui oso nvr and so i did not go t0o.. i went h0me with a dull dull m0od and my sister asked me wart happen and i refused to tell her at first.. she kept asking me until i told her wart happen and she say "aiya, chinese can retake 1 mahh" wart she said was oso true but i felt that i amm already so weak in maths and already have no time for it.. n0w my chinese get c6 it means that i need to spend extra time f0r chinese? duhhh.. tt really w0rries me bec0s i dunn wanna get a d7 for my mathss.. i sat at a c0rner for a moment and dazed for quite long.. i had lotsa of feelings, thoughts and motivations after getting my chinese O's level results..

SERIOUSLY, I REALLY HATE THOSE WHOM L0OK D0WN ON ME WHEN I GET C6!! I D0N'T NEED ANY CONSOLES FROM THOSE WHOM GET BETA THEN ME BEC0S I FEEL THAT THE MORE U C0NSOLE ME THE MORE U MADE ME SAD.. JUS GIVE ME TIME AND I WILL DO IT!!! TO PEEPS OUT THERE WHOM HAD WORRIED FOR ME, I'M FINE.. *nise signs off*

♥ 10:51 PM

yesterday night i did not manage to update my bloggie bec0s i was alm0st sleeping the rest of the day.. i went home at about 3 plus yesterdae and my darling came over to my place bec0s he wanted to eat the p0rridge that i had asked my mother to cook! i always had a habit to ask my mother t0 prepare the f0od i wanted to eat since l0ng, when it ishh her off day! am i bad? hahahas.. when i went home all of my family members were sleeping and i prepared the porridge for my darling.. he said it was nice yea and i enjoyed it tOo =Pp~ after eating, he took 0ut his D&T stuffs to sh0w me h0w far and h0w well he had d0ne for his d&T.. actually i can oso see that he spent alot of them and effort on the project.. gonna wish him all the best for his D&T and his upc0ming N's level prelims yea! w0rk hard dear dear.. =) after browsing thru the project i felt kinda sleepy and i climbed onto my sister bed and sleep with her.. for my darling, i pulled out a mattress for him to sleep on the fl0or.. at about 5.3o my darling w0ke up and i also woke up at the same time.. i guess the b0th of us are "xin you lin xing yi dian d0ng" hahaha! later i ask him go h0me first bec0s it will bE m0re comfortable to sleep 0n his 0wn bed yea.. after darling went home i continue to sleep until 7 plus b4 i woke up for dinner and watch the SINGAPORE IDOL! whenn i was watching this show i felt that the judges are simply rude and they thinkk they are great.. they jus give me a feeling that they wanna copy the way h0w the americans speakk.. arsleh0le~ seriously some of the singer whom sang did their best and their voices were acceptable. h0wever i dunn0 whyee the judges did not ch0ose them.. arghhHh! the judges thinkk that they are so prefect.. sOO whyEe n0t theY be a sinGer? =\ after watchin my tv, i went to do some of my workk for awhile b4 i started watching tv agains until 12 plus.. i talke to darling no the ph0ne for awhile b4 i slept at 1 plus..

for today, feeling rather tired when i woke up but had no choice.. as usual i prepare myself for schh and t0dae my feeling ish slightly different from the rest bec0s i will be getting my O's level chinese resutls.. i doubt i can get a "B"! got tt kinda of feeling that i will hab to re do my CHINESE! =\ sighhss! if i really have to redo i guess i must do it better this time round yea? *nise signs off*

♥ 11:29 AM