presently, i am in schh now. i had jus finished my decision making for my home econs project.. somehow, i felt so much relieved.. but i know there are still alot things not done yet.. arghhh! i think i need to quickly finished up those task that i am supposed to finished.. if not there will be not time~!
last night i wanted to type my bloggie before i go to bed. but the damn SCV was down! i thought it was my wiring that gave me the problem. but when i heard from my sista bf that he is also facing the same problem as i do, i guess it was SCV's problem. i tried to go to bed as soon as i finished my stuffs but when i was on my bed i took quite sometime to go to my lalala land.. as usual, i woke up with a sleeply m0od t0dae.. sighs* yesterday was indeed a horrible day for me.. a day for me to see everything that i am suppose to know.. i guess~ i felt so miserable in klass and i never had those hard feelings b4.. perharps i think tt's all about life. during recess yesterdae my whole mind was in a whirl.. i kept thinking "what's life all about? whyee am i in such a state? do i deserve all this? should i give up at this very moment?" all this thoughts keep coming in my mind and i felt so depressed.. i tried controlling my tears but i failed.. when i was at the parade square, my tears rolled down my cheeks.. backk in klass my whole mo0d was really d0wn down d0wn~ i was trying real hard to listen wart my teacher was going thru but i felt so sleepy.. after schh i still have the maths peer tutoring and i felt so damn irritated when i jus thought of it.. simply waste of time to stay backk!
When i was back home, i read my cousin bloggie and i really felt so sad for her.. her maid is gonna leave her and yet she cannot sent her off because she is in schh.. when i read she and her bf's bloggie i could not control my tears any longer. tears jus rolled down my cheeks againz.. perharps, i am a human and i do hab feelings for those who were once nice or close to me.. but i really cannot imagine how my dear kesh will feel.. i really hope that she can get it all thru! can say i oso quite miss ENI and the thought of her leaving made me quite hard to accept. cos is like she ish going back to where she truly belong and it is at another part of the world. maybe if i do hab the chance i could meet her againz but if i don't... that's the end of it! i could never ever had the chance to meet her nor talk to her.. *sighs*
Yesterdae was indeed a bad day for me! i jus wanna say that i hate the way u treat me and i hate the way u pretend to talk to me.. it really makes me wanna puke! i jus hope that u will leave my life as s0on as possible and i dun need such a someone like u to be in my lyfe! u affect my m0od and u disgust me..sumtimes i w0nder whyee am i sucha a fool? whyee the things u did to me will affect me? as usual saying, i am a human and i do hab feelings. maybe as wart she said as time go by, i will get numb to all ure doings and jus get by day by day like this.. perharps its TRUE! *nise signs off*
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